This last week, week 5, can go down as the hardest week I've ever had at SSP. It was a very emotionally draining week for many reasons, and it took me far away from being here for the campers. All I wanted was to be in Eugene. There was a lot of housing and money issues and then one of my high schooler boys father had a heart attack on Thursday. And to not be there for that and for my kids is one of the hardest things. Plus, to not have cell phone service to get continual updates has been a very big struggle. Those things combined have pulled me away from the work here and I don't like that feeling either!
This song I posted is called Unashamed by Starfield, and around 3 minutes into the song is very powerful lyrics for me right now. It says "Here I am, at Your feet, in my brokenness complete" and repeats it over and over again. That's all I can rely on right now, being broken, but God is there through and through to fall back on. It's very hard for me to not be in Eugene right now, but God's incredible strength will pull me through this last week and protect the hearts of everyone I care about and give strength to Frank to recover from the heart attack. All I can do is fall down to God and give all of my fears to Him and know He has a plan. I am broken right now, and I'm hurt in so many ways, but if I let Him, God will complete me.
Please send out prayers for Frank Moore and his two sons Todd and Geoff and wife Barb. Frank underwent heart surgery and then was induced into a coma. They are in the process of waking him up from the coma right now, but he has yet to wake up as far as I know. We went through something very similar to this last year with another kid whose father didn't make it - I'm not ready to do it again. Lots of love and prayers to the family!
I'll be praying - it sounds like I'll be seeing you soon in Eugene.....hoping your last week is incredible.
ReplyDeleteI love you. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteI'm praying for you and I hope this week got off to a better start. We have a house now so no more worrying about that! Love you and miss you!
ReplyDeleteYou're amazing. I will be praying for you, as well as for the family of your high schooler. Don't give up hope!
ReplyDeleteI have not much, to offer You.
ReplyDeleteNot near what You deserve, but still You come,
Because Your cross, has placed in me my worth.
Oh Christ my King, of sympathy,
Whose wounds secure my peace.
Your grace extends to call me friend.
Your mercy sets me free.
And I know I'm weak, I know I'm unworthy,
To call upon Your name.
But because of grace, because of Your mercy,
I stand here unashamed.
I can't explain this kind of love, I'm humbled and amazed,
That You'd come down, from heaven's heights,
And greet me face to face.
Here I am at Your feet,
In my brokenness, complete.