It's official. On May 26, 2014, I will have sold most things I own and have my car packed with the rest ready to take with me on the road to the opposite side of the country. Ladies and gentlemen, I am moving to Boston. Actually, Lynn to be exact.
I've known for a while now and have slowly been leaking the news here and there while trying to avoid the wildfire. It's hard thing to do with social media these days, but I feel I've done a fair job. And now, I want to openly share with all of you and allow myself to journal and blog through this process.
I've thought a lot about how to express my reasons for the move, and what I've come up with is that I have no idea how. It's too deeply rooted yet so simple. And it's that peace I feel that I just can't explain. It's the heart break and sense of adventure that I just can't shake. It just seems a lot like life.
Then, while going through some stuff, I found a journal entry I wrote back in July and thought it would be appropriate to share to give a little understanding:
"*Listening to Get Out of This Town by Lady Antebellum* A little late, but about a month ago I decided that this will be my last year in Eugene. I've told a few people, mainly my family and a few close friends but will now wait to tell everyone else. Three reasons: 1) It's still a year out 2) I'm not entirely sure where I'm off to and 3) I love my job right now and am unsure when to talk about it. This all stemmed from when Hillary informed me that this time next year they want to turn the apartment back into a full garage. Before this news, there was only two reasons I could see myself leaving the farm - getting married or finally leaving Eugene. I always thought I would leave this town on my own time, and I am, but more than that I know God has opened this door. And I'm so ready to go through it. I'm not 100% sure where I want to end up, but the heart strings are tugging pretty hard for Boston. I know a lot can happen in a year, but I think I'm ready to be near my brother again and to be in the same place as my sister-in-law for the first time. And as they are getting ready to grow their family and I'm going through a quarter life crisis, it only seems right. Sometimes I wish I could just pack up and leave right now, get out of this place because I'm so ready, but on the same hand I know I'll be happy to have one more year here. I'll get to have another year of running, to save money and to work at such a wonderful place. I'll get to watch Maggie and Jax in their first year at Oregon, have another year with Michael, Ryan and Whitley, and just get to be with the people I love for one more year. I'm so ready to open my heart to these new awaiting adventures."
Crazy to look back and think I had a year before the move and now I'm down to three months. This is going to be a crazy adventure and my heart is going to utterly break when I pull out of the driveway, but it will also be soaring. I'm going to hit the road with my momma and embark on an epic road trip across this beautiful country and I couldn't be more excited. And even more, I am so excited to be able to share it with all of you.
The time will come for thank you's and goodbyes, but until then I cannot (and probably will not ever) be able to express in words how this place, these scars and all you people who have been apart of my journey have shaped me. Thank you.
Here's to the unknown and the stories to tell along the way!
